I made my bed

Now i have to lie in it. I see his point of view. He is gona leave and be happy. And i will be alone. It took me too long to get to that level where i want to make things work.  Now there is nothing left to say. I should move back east i guess i really dont want to keep the kids all the time.

I know now that ii hate my life and i am seriously thinking of it's worth to anyone as i have confirmed that it would not matter to him one bit.  I am unsexy to him as i lack the confidence i need. I trully should have kept my mouth shut. Now i know that i can expect my marriage to end.

I don't even know how to be human. I feel as though i should never have human interaction, that was not my thing. Oh well no more saying no to things i need to leave my stress behind as he does.

  Maybe i will go to vegas at the end of the month.  Maybe i will go to margarita night on friday. Maybe i'll just live my life since he no longer wants to be part of it. Oh well.

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